birthday boy...

it’s been nines years
since I first knew
I was on the other side

what does downward momentum mean
sliding or spiraling
direction is not an option

I could choose to slow the decent
I could perceive it all as really ascent
perception of definition being relevant

considered long term unemployable
I know too much to be subordinate
I can see through everyone else’s fog

I’m less evincible than I was
I ache where I didn’t used to
yet I fear little

I can look at young women
and smile of contentment
been there done that

I still run a little warm
coolant necessary
but I overheat less

my mind still wonders
more than it wanders
I know how things work

It’s not necessary for me to know details
I have intuitiveness
I have experience

I own less
I owe less
I have more